Song in E Lyrics

I wish that I drank
Because of you and not only because of me
And then I could blame something painful enough
Not to make me look any more weak

When you heard my name
You could be angry and have a good reason to be
And then when I sang
A horrible drunken parade of my worst thoughts
I′d say, "Give me no sympathy
It's the mercy I can′t take"

Oh, I wish you'd come over, not to stay
Just tell me that I was your biggest mistake to my face
And then leave me alone
In an empty apartment, face down in the carpet
I wish you'd hurt me
It′s the mercy I can′t take